so a lot has happened to me over this summer, and I am sorry that I have been absent for most of it. Well first off, I went to Florida. While I was there i went to sea world and disney land. I stayed at coacoa beach and relaxed for I have been having ISSUSE ivolving my past that were resurfacing. I went closer and closer to Miami, then I really wanted to. We did go there and my aunt was worried about me because I looked oddly depressed. Well duh Kyro lives there. I kept thinking of how close we were and it gave me shivers. I did get hot on a bunch of times but thats nothing really new lol. I went camping this summer, well I always camp out so thats nothing new either. That little bunny died in my hand, or say palm, and all my effort for not getting attached failed. Yes you assholes I did cry. He was something specail, he was my little fighter. So that was his name. I still have cameron, my magic bunny that heals my wounds. Oh yeah also I have been redoing my room, it looks great one wall is this dark blue. It kicks ass its like a love chamber. I got a lock on my door so theres my fun. My brother got sent to jail once again but is out now and not living with my family anymore. my sister also moved out hehe. I am the only child in the house and I am always alone, which is even better. I am working on a story called Wide Eyes. It about love and vampires, my sweet blood drinkers. I still have that dam charlie millipede thing and it turns out that I am keeping him, to my intense surprise my father loves him. We have obtained a 42in wide screen tv and hooked the Xbox 360 up to it. I have been playing Dead Rising. Its about zombies of course. But with this fun there is also a downside. Me and jon I thought were dating because I asked him out and he said he'll try. So thats a yes right? But now we aren't...I am so confused. It was a big mistake anyway to ask him out because well i really crave something eles that well to humans don't exsist. So I decided no more dating. I don't plan to have kids or get married but to write stories in my cabin in the woods and die knowing that the only thing that I love was animals. The only person that I do recall loving was Mikel and to this day I think about him every second. What a bore I must be right... Well anyway people pick up Twilight by Stephine Meyer. It is the best book in the world. If you do pick it up and love it but hate the ending don't worry because shes working on the second novel, but that ones called New Moon. It is the continuing of Twilight. Shes a new author, but she is already available at Barns and Nobles. So what are you reading my boring shit for go pick up her book. Well signing out for now. love yyour truly, LuSt

so a couple of days ago, i was at work (like always) and since i work at a travling petting zoo one of the rabbits had a baby. Yeah but everyone at the place where we were wouldn't leave it alone. So then the mother denied the baby. Joe my fucked up boss was going to kill it, but well i am a rabbit girl for those who really know. I took him home. Three days later of constint feeding and warming he is still living. I am extrememly tired of caring for a three day old kit (baby bunny) but its all worth it.

~Lust

I am not me,

i can't belive,

to tired to care,

to in love to share,

surrounded by clutter,

no i'm not a cutter,

my tears fall,

I am a broken doll,

need to be repaired,

do i dare?

 

so i am not in the mood,

be shooed

~Lust

 

here meet charlie my new friend for the summer and half of next year my science teacher mrs. carrier lets one student keep him for awhile. I told her i would care for this....millipede......god what was i thinking, look how ugly it is. What if it gets my bunny sick?....Oh i will just not put it...i mean charlie near cameron thatz all......yep god i wonder what my father will say.

but meet the bug that i really want and truley getting. meet CHARLETTE lol. i love these spiders with their eight legs. See charlie doesn't have eight legs....he has THOUSANDS....but in a way he is cute. Your weird lust signing out.

~LUST~

PS: i am gonna get a pic of all my bug friends and i on here one day and i don't want you guys to think that it is gross because they are beautiful...IN THEIR OWN WAY

hey all. Listen i haven't been myself, i have neglected my ablility to write. I haven't been myself. So i am going to write poem.

Can't take it,

to many rules,

stuck in a pit,

with deadly tools,

save me,

is written on my wall,

carved with a key,

by a broken doll,

emty tissue boxes,

scattered on the floor,

skimper to the corner,

behind my door,

grind my teeth,

blow my nose,

look at the dead wreath,

crumpled by my toes,

my headache rolls in,

i rock myself to sleep,

remember my bin,

with my stuffed ripped sheep,

the holes in my door,

lets the light shine through,

let it bring good luck,

and wishes to you,

they will not work for me,

my blessed angels went to sleep,

i am nothing to thee,

thats why i weep.

       Fin

see i write things :)

love 4-ever

~Lust

hello all, it seems that i haven't been here for awhile. I was bored so i found some cool shit to put here. Anyway i have work today tommorow and sunday so since i get payed daily i be making lotz of shitz. So i  can get my gutair FINALLY. is that how you spell that word. Anyway, This girl ( no need to complain) won't leave me alone (Sorry i want to vent) She has to get on to everything. see my friends and i kinda do play roles. I am PJOe and ash is a little kid and bali is her mom. I can't take it I won't say her name but does she always need to nag and bug. She is a little duckling who won't stop following me grrr. i am not one to scream but " GO THE FUCK AWAY YOU WANNA- BEE LEAVE ME ALONE GET YOUR OWN FRIENDS TO BUG SHO" SORRY MOVING ON.   Hi everyone. I am not who i use to be i hope today flys by i have to go get more units for my cheap tracphone but hey i am responisble. anyway love u all ( not really)

 

~Lust

hiii i can't really talk cause the bell at school shall ring soon. This kid cj won't stop throwing erasers at me laterz

I dream about him. I think about him, I said that i loved him when i didn't. He's sweet and funny. I knew him a long time. He use to be mine, but now hes not. He walks past me everyday i always turn my head. Do you think that he still loves me? Has he forgotten about me? I didn't even move an inch in forgetting about him. I remember the kisses, the hugs, the laughs, the jokes, and the games, i remember the hours on the phone. I will always love him, meanwhile when we do lock eyes i can't find a trace of love left in him, all i see is him. I know by heart every inch of hair on his head, where each scar is and their storys. The shape of his lips, the lenght of his hands. I even remember his calases. My memory extends forever about him. The way he laughs, the way how his heart beats. I remember the warmth of his body against mine. My thoughts can continue forever and ever. There are things that will never leave me, like the way when we walked together , the sound of the beat of our steps together as one, but the thing that i will never forget no matter how many winkels form, is the love that he had for me.

                                             FIN

* And now, in the middest of the night, i confind my love that was hiddened. I take my heart and rip it out and give you all my love. The problem mikel isn't me. its you!

~Lust~

I haven't been the same. I am not like me anymore i am diffrent. I smell something in the air that was there a while ago and i want to grip it and hold the smell and the memories forever. I wish i could take everything that i have done to you mikel and wish that my eyes never meet yours. The love will continue on for me but it has already left you. i am sorry for the years of pain and hurt, i hope you know this. it is useless for me to really write this for you don't even know my blog name or if i have another one lol but it makes me feel better. This will be the last time i udder these words. " Mikel i will always lvoe you no matter what, you will always be my fantasy guy that i dream about i wish you utter luck in the future" love Autumn

Your a Dark Dragon! Ok, yes, not very nice. Your evil, spiteful, malicious, and jsu darn bad. You like to see othrs in pain, or cause it. Im sorry to say, but you scare me. Fly around somewhere...err, far away.

Bitchology

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, I'm called a bitch. When I stand up for those I love, I'm called a bitch. When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way, I'm called a bitch. Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me. When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it, I'm defined as a bitch. The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish. It means I have courage to be ME I won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I 'should' be. I am outspoken, opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that! So go ahead . . . try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. You won't succeed. And if that makes me a bitch, so be it. I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.

Babe

In

Total

Control of

Herself

Beautiful

Intelligent

 Talented

Charming

Hell of a Woman

Beautiful

Individual

That

Can

Handle it All

and this one is Jenn's

Beautiful
Individual
That
Causes
Hard-ons!!

everyone sometimes doesn't shut up jesterjosh so in a way then everyone would be bitchs...right?